Current mood:	tired
Current music:	Avril Lavigne!

i've let something so small and shallow dictate my life. I can't go an hour without thinking about it.
I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. 
I want to be what I see in my head, and I'm so fucking sorry for everytime I've hurt someone because it's all I can think about.

I can't beat around anymore. I can't say it's all anyone's fault. 
I can't let anyone feel my pain. 

1. Thank you, but I'm sorry I can't be anyone but who I am. I want to be, but I can't. Thanks for standing by me.
2. I am sorry for everytime I've hurt you. You mean more than anyone to me. These few last few months have been hard for me, figuring out who is really my friend and not. And I know you have the things that drive me insane and make want to go home- but overall you love me. And I could never explain my gratitude towards you.
3. You're so beautiful, smart, and nice. What did you do to me... you bring out the selfish bitch in me. You're so innocent, you're so innocent, you're so innocent- you have to be.
4. Did I do anything to you? Or could I just not compete with the people who you've become closer to?
5. I'll be there for you. Take care of you, and make up for everything I didn't do. 
6. Leave me alone, you don't know what's best for me. Let me live my life without you being hit by every decision I make. 







hey, tomorrows my birthday 
that makes me 15

ha ha...