Current mood:

discontent

Monday
I'm trying to make an effort
even if in the end it doesn't matter. I know I haven't split my time evenly or even fairly to the people who mean the most to me. But I'm going to try tonot regret it all and I'm going to try and climb up from where I am. I do not regret the time I gave to people, because I know it was time spent learning. And I know have the worse habbit of making people greater than they actually are and then being let down. 
And I know that my weakness is me thinking that I deserve more than I actually do.

I will continue to speak when I feel it's okay, but I will make an effort to the people I love the most.
I will also make an effort to continue to grow from all the things I've realized in the past month or so.

So I'm sorry for all the time I didn't give you and I'm sorry for all the time I felt the need to lie to you.
anyone.